The name "Fluffi" was a name i invented the first time i started to use the Internet. I didn't want to tell people who i really was, so i had to come up with a cute name, that would sound soft and babyish. Just like me.
I am a guy from 1971, so at the time i made this web site, i just had my 34. birthday.
I live alone in a apartment with great view to the 2. largest city in Denmark - Aarhus.
I work in the IT business, and enjoy my work everyday. IT is a great hobby of mine, so it's nice to be able to live of your hobby. When i return home from work, that's where i like to spend most of my time - at home, where i can act as the baby i so much like to be.
I've been infantilist as long as i can remember. I use to say that it all started when i was about 8 years old, so i guess you can say that i am a experienced adult baby ;)
Some of the earliest memories of mine is from en even earlier stage of my life. I believe i was about 4-5 years old at the time i put on a diaper, and walked around our house wearing it.
I also remember that i at some point in my childhood, had gathered the kids from the road, to show them my interest in diapers. I was amazed that the other kids didn't share my interest, but at that point i realized that i was different from the other kids.
None the less, i was very fascinated by the diapers. Likewise i used to spend allot of time looking at advertisements for both diapers, baby clothing and accessories. I will never forget the words in some of the catalogs.
As a kid, i was very afraid of buying diapers, of risk of being noticed by neighbors or friends. Luckily my mom had put a couple of old cloth diapers in one of my closets, so i had allot of fun playing with them through my childhood. Then one day, my mon decided to throw them out when she cleaned my rom and closet. That was a sad sad day! But i was hooked by the diapers, so i found ways to play with towels instead. They made a good replacement for my diaper play, and i had allot of fun walking around the living room with a diapered butt. I never used the diaper replacements for their initial purpose, but i really enjoyed it anyway.
One of my neighbors had small children, and i remember spending allot of time on their bathroom, where they had the diapers for their babies. I wonder if they ever found about my diaper play there...
Through my teenage years, i became more and more brave, and i started to buy baby diapers in the local supermarket. Every time i did this, was a difficult job for me, because i was sure that everyone in the shop knew who i was, and knew that i had no reason for whatever to buy diapers. Just the thing to go down the baby department, was a big thing to do for me. But it helped me to have a good story by hand if i met anybody i knew. I always had a answer to all the questions i could think of. Luckily i newer met anybody i had to tell a lie.
Another thing was to hide the diapers when i got home. I didn't want my parents to know anything about my diaper desires, so i was very careful to hide my diapers in back of drawers and closets, so the risk of getting caught was minimal.
It was a great pleasure to leave my parents, and move to my own apartment. Suddenly it was no problem to come home with a box of diapers, and i could leave them standing on my living room floor, for several days, without anybody knowing anything about them. Still i needed very good planning when i had guests, as i had to be absolutely sure that there was no diapers or pacifiers around the apartment. Likewise i was committed to hide the diapers in the back of a closet, so my guests not would risk seeing them. It was also a problem for me to get the diapers home to my apartment from the supermarket, as i did not want my neighbors to know anything about my little secret.
After a couple of years as a single, i got a girlfriend, and we moved together after 1½ years. The first 1½ year, i kept my infantilism as a secret for her, but when she wanted to start living together with me in my apartment, i had to tell her about my secret desires. I was very afraid of her reaction, because i loved her so deeply, and was afraid that she would leave me because of the desires. I was very glad when she accepted it, but although she accepted me, i newer got her to play with me. After 4 happy years together, we decided to split, but to this day we are still very good friends. Today, I always tell potential girlfriends about my desires before we talk about being boyfriend/girlfriend. It's very important to me, that my partners accept my infantilism 100%
After breaking up with my girlfriend, i moved to my current apartment, where the infantilism has been allowed to grow. I have made my bedroom to a real nursery, with crib, Winnie the Pooh curtains, Winnie the Pooh decorations on the wall, Winnie the Pooh night lamps, lots of teddy bears, and soon - a changing table.
It makes it a little difficult for me to have guests without telling them about my infantilism, but i am working on that part. After al it is my life, an i decide how i want to live. I think that most people i know will accept the fact that i am infantilist, although they may think the desires are very different and special. But as i don't harm anybody with what i do, i think most people don't care, and accept this new part of me.
Well, if you imagine that i toddle around, drewling, having a mom driving me around the supermarket and checking my diaper in public, you are quite wrong!
Actually i play very innocent, and it can be hard to tell that i am playing if you don't know i am.
I can play on different levels, but typically i come home from work, enter my bedroom/nursery where i get a diaper from the closet and put it on. On top of the diaper i put on a onesie, and then it's time for a nap in the crib. Off course i bring some of my favorite stuffed animals, and Winnie the Pooh. I also have a pacifier to calm me down.
Then i can sleep for a hour or two. I get up to make dinner, still in my onezie and diaper, and then normal clothing on top. At this point it's very hard to see that i play baby unless you know it.
The night goes on, and i do what most people do - watch television, chatting on the internet, doing my laundry, cleaning the apartment etc.
Off course i use my diaper when i sometimes need to pee, and then i get a fresh diaper on my "changing table". Around midnight it's time for the last diaper change before i get tucked in my crib again. And then it's lights out and night night for the baby.
Sometimes - when it gets very crazy - i might find some of my play toys like Duplo bricks, and play with them on the floor, or i might watch a cartoon while i suck my pacifier and coloring a color book.
It's very nice to meet other infantilist's, where you can see that you are not alone. Since 1995, i have meet allot of other infantilist's, and i've got friends for life. At the same time i have meet some people where we had the same infantilism, but none other common interests. The fact that you share the infantilism doesn't make you good friends. I think there need to be other things that brings people together than just the infantilism.
About Fluffi
About infantilism
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My nursery
My teddy bears
My crib